"But I still had to wake up everyday, still had to keep going."
Finally updated my Blogspot for the longest time now. I've been alive and alienated for the past few days. It's summer and I haven't done anything exciting. I want late night adventures at Fort and in Ayala Center, I want to go the beach with my friends, I want to go stargazing at the back of the truck, I want to have fun photo shoots with friends, I just want to make the most out of my summer.I'm sick and tired of staying in my room doing nothing. Well my parents enrolled me to review classes for college entrance exams and that doesn't count as exciting on the bright side I got to meet new friends.
I'm an incoming senior this school year and it hasn't sunk in to my head that I would be graduating next year. I'm actually off to college in months time and that's what i'm pretty scared of. I feel like I haven't done much and I think senior year would be the best time to make up for it.
On other news i'm pretty hooked up with running. It became a habit of mine now. I've been running for almost 7 months. I'm learning to love the run and to love myself as well. A lot of people are wondering on how I stay motivated and why I started in the first place. It was pretty hard to convince myself to wake up early in the morning and tie my shoes. I always had a pinch of thought in my mind that I would do it tomorrow but that doesn't stop me. I made a fitblr for motivation. I have also convinced my siblings to run as well.Running is the most raw of freedom. It sucked up my depression. " I was going through some depressing, dark times. But it's a journey and I learned so much from that journey." I used to have eating disorders, I always locked myself inside my room and I used to hurt myself. I had the mentality that I was the most ugliest person in the world, I hated every part of my body. I hated myself and the worst part of it was I kept all of my problems to myself. I had it all bottled up inside of me. Until I started running, my world turned upside down and I had a better outlook in life. I learned so much more and of course with the help of prayer. Running taught me that I am loved and I am worth it.
"it teaches us to keep moving forward, one step at a time, especially in the most painful moments"
